Your journey is to see how deeply you can interface your mind with infinity.  That's the journey of a monk, to see.  "Monk" simply means that you've decided that the most important thing, the only relevant thing, in life is that.  You've been properly initiated by a teacher who has put you on the path, empowered you, given you directions for meditation, and then off you go to meditate and to live your life as purely, simply and excitingly as possible.  Excitingly in the sense that your perception is that life is glowing more every day because your meditation is clarifying, and the way you lead your life and the thoughts you think are continually clarifying your perceptual body.  If, on the other hand, life is glowing less, obviously you're not doing yoga properly, and you have to start over, hit the reset button and learn what yoga is.  You've fallen from the path and it's time to get back on it.

This happens to monks a number of times.  Where you just - you're not practicing yoga at all.  You're not practicing real meditation.  You're practicing ego or practicing laziness or practicing confusion.  It happens to everybody and we don't feel bad about it, we don't have to account for what we've done or not done, we simply have to get back on the path.

- "Meditation", Tantric Buddhism